Hi, i'm fourteen, i'm a girl, my name doesn't matter, & i'm basically gonna use this blog to express my deepest thoughts& feelings, so, here goes. I've had a constant battle with my weight and overall appearance since the age of ten, also known as the time i discovered fast food, and became addicted, i ate it almost 5 times a week, but I've never gained too much weight from it I guess. Now my diet consists of fruits, turkey sandwiches, sushi, anything light.I don't think I've ever had an eating disorder or anything before, but lately I'm just eating less and less each day so maybe i do.. All my life I've just wanted to be beautiful in society's eye's, but the fact that i have terrible acne/acne scars doesn't help, even when i load on makeup you can still see all the scars its horrific. I started high school in August i lost all my friends, and boyfriend around that time, I've been I guess you could say "depressed" since then, although it gave me even more motivation to lose the weight so then maybe people will actually want to be my friend, and guy's will actually want to be my boyfriend. I just want to feel happy in my own skin, actually happy in general.. Well that's my story I guess..
Height: 4'11"
Heaviest Weight: 155
Starting Weight: 140
Lowest Weight: 127
Current Weight: 127
Goal W1: 120 (new jeans!)
Goal W2:109 (first pair of shorts :-)
Goal W3: 97( Bikini<3)

Just made myself throw up for the first time. I’ve officially become everything I said I wouldn’t.

Posted on Sunday, 15 January